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Location: Korea, South
Interests: playing tennis, singing, playing the piano, reading mangas, playing video games, writin stories on my comp, and talk'n to my fwendz on the phone...
Expertise: *hm*...letz see wut i'm really good at...*hm*...i really don't know...this iyz tough...i guess i'm good at cheering up my fwendz wen they are feeling down...i know just wut to say to make them happy again...i'm guess i can play the piano really well...but i'm try'n to get better...maybe a fwend of mine can help me get better...
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|Mood: extremely happy|
today i made my own myspace layout it was a great labor of love for my part...check it out
Does anyone read or write in their xangas anymore...well to whoever is reading this...
It's one more week till this year ends and another year
starts...looking back to this beginning of the year I've had a lot of
good memories that will stay with me for a lifetime and a lot of bad
memories that will scar me for the rest of my life...There times I wish
I could do again and again...and other times that I wish I would never
had to go through or do again...2005 was the year the best of me came
out and the worst of me came out...This year has proved to me where I
should where I should take the next step into my life...As of the
starting of the New Year I have to let go and say goodbye to the little
girl I once was and grow up...I'm not a little girl anymore...I'm a
young woman now...I'm 18 years old...I'm no longer a child...I know now
I can't keep doing what I did in high school anymore...I'm in college
now...this is where I will mold my future...If I fuck up now no one
will be there to help me fix it up again...I know that now...I don't
wanna put my parents through my shit again...I have to become a better
person for my parents and I have to become a better person for him...If he wasn't there to support me during my senior year when I thought I was not going to graduate...I probably would not have...He pushed me to become a better person and change who I was...at the same time I wanted to push him
to become a better person as well...I can't thank Christine enough for
putting him and me together...I will always be forever grateful to her
and owe a debt that one day I can hopefully repay...Without Him I probably wouldn't know what love was and to become totally unselfish in a relationship...I wouldn't give Him up for anything...He makes me truly happy...I don't wanna give up my sole reason for living for anything...He brought out the best of me...
I finally realized what another thing was important in life...My family
was important to me...Yes I did have the occasional fights with my
parents...Sometimes I "hated" them...but that's when I knew they loved
me and didn't what me to fuck up...I know they don't want me to make
any mistakes...but they can't hold my hand forever...I'm growing up
now...I'm in college...and have a real boyfriend that hopefully I will
marry someday...This year I think is when our family has become
closer...even with all the fighting and stress of my mom's new postion
she's truly happy for the rewards she gets...
Nearing the end of this year...there was a lot of stress and constant fighting in my relationship with Him...on
the outside to everyone else we were the cutest and most perfect couple
anyone could wish to be...in the inside it was the total
opposite...constant fighting over time, constant fighting over
flirting, just constant fighting...during that one month when I wasn't
with him I lost myself...I had
no reason to do what I was doing...the future I was working for was no
longer there...I looked for comfrot in the wrong places...thought
having sex with a new boyfriend will make me forget about him
more...but I just cried the whole time...After that I didn't wanna give
up on what I thought was something worth fighting for...but sometimes
you have to let them know that too...so I told him...I can't keep seeing him, that it hurt too much to want someone who doesn't want you back...if he truly wants me to move on...I can't see him...but
a couple of weeks later...all of that was changed...we got back
together...and I'm more determind than ever to make things
work...because I believe in this love...I really believe he is the one...
This year I learned...
We all must grow up to take the next step in life
Friends you thought would never hurt you or touch you in a way you didn't like...will
You find love when your not trying to find it at all
If you love someone, let them go...If they return to you, it was meant
to be...If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with...
You don't marry someone you can live with - you marry the person who you cannot live without...
most memorable memory...
*girl gets hit w/ pillow*
Girl: Did you hit me w/ a pillow?
Boy: No *tries to look innocent*
Girl: Who was it then?
Boy: IT WAS THE WIND!!!
12.07.05 He didn't forget about us...
|mood: extremely happy|
HEHE WE'RE BACK TOGETHER WOO HOO
aye...i hate life..."LOVE DOESN'T LOVE"